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    Thursday, July 26th, 2007
    2:46 pm
    Hurry Here is Rasam !!!
    yes Day before yesterday I prepared Rasam. I forgot to get pic of it will upload it latter. All these days I thought samabar/rasam is tough to cook. But not here afterwards.

    Not feeling well frm a day -with stomach going inside and refusing to bounce back.Eyes and mind not in proper state - so mouth is not letting out words ....
    Monday, July 16th, 2007
    12:39 pm
    I shalt turn .... ?? today
    Me parimala , sitting in cyber cafe ....

    Thinking....

    22 was pretty much fluctuating mind interms of life issues,age to njoy.obviously Iam pretty much changed/matured at this age than I was at 22 viewing life in lill more deeper n broader sense.

    Yes Today is my B Day n I turn 24 :).Thanks to narendra who called in midnight.Thanks to all frnds who wished thru orkut n Santhosh for that call in morning.

    Unlike 22, When I think of 24 - its a pretty much stable age.One would be mentally stable towards life ,matured enough to take plunge on it.I think now Iam sort of starting thinking towards -----... u guess n tell me ?

    (ok Thinking apart )-

    I Have to still get my dress altered a lill then go out with family after 6.After college specially frm 1 yr I have become more home sick- I mean giving more importance to family now a days,becoming tooo senti I guess.Donno y oflate frm past 2 months I have become withdrawn/lonely types - not talking to ppl as usual with many things tat happened in life a month back or so.May be I need couple of months to recover frm incidents which have left scar still.so it would be lill calm/kool/quite B day than prev ones.

    Again thinking ...

    But y should u let anything spoil this day after all it comes ones in a yr u see parimala ;-)

    so Here I go


    and wait Iam coming just coming ....



    (More update later )

    UPdate -

    me, bro, mom had been to Aangan for dinner. It was nice:).

    Current Mood: happy
    Thursday, April 12th, 2007
    3:15 pm
    I was uploading pics of Mysore trip tat we had been to last saturday and sunday . I read this poem -felt nice when i read it

    If I can stop one heart from breaking,
    I shall not live in vain.
    If I can ease one life the aching,
    Or cool one pain,
    Or help one fainting robin
    Unto his nest again,
    I shall not live in vain.

    ~Emily Dickenson
    Tuesday, April 10th, 2007
    6:58 pm
    waiting for that moment
    waiting for that response
    waiting for that look
    waiting for that expression in It's eyes
    waiting for that feel
    waiting for that long walk with It
    waiting for those words
    waiting waiting and waiting
    fear of waiting for ever
    but still waiting
    and waiting

    UPDATE :-

    It has been almost a year we shifted to house at ground floor.

    I still remember those days after my father expired - no one came to support us or give a penny.My father had built house in 30*40 site that he had got few thound. We used to stay in small house in 1st floor . For one year we didn't get my father's pension money -niether tenant at ground floor house used to give rent to us(yes he was bad tenant trying to use the fact that my father was not anymore).For almost year we survived on 1,500 Rs money per month. We had to clear the debt that my father had taken to build house. For almost next 3 years we lived on 4000RS (we managed to get tenant out of house after series of struggle and giving him 50K money -he used to threaten us tat he will go to court and we were too young and soft to face this).I still remember those days when my mother used to struggle and give her best to support me and my brother.I traveled by Luna during my engg since I didnt want to ask my mother for money for new vehicle. Then I made this decision to earn get and scooty, which I got by internship money.When my brother started earning we took loan and expanded 1st floor house. Last year when loan amount became less we decided that we will move to ground floor house - in which we never stayed (yes after my father built tat house we got transfered immediately...).

    Today I feel when I look back this 12 years of life - in which i have learned to face life. I feel blessed having wonderfull friends/family- those days when we used to hangout and enjoy .Those friends who shared all those feelings,spent time.
    Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007
    4:13 pm
    You Should Rule Saturn

    Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.

    You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.
    And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.

    You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.
    You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.
    Friday, March 23rd, 2007
    11:29 am
    I am a Software Engineer... Proud or Deception??????)(ARTICLE I read)
    Touching one that i read ......

    True to some extent or fully - wat do u say ?


    It was raining heavily outside. Dark clouds gathered in the sky and nature was in its ominous best. I took a break from my work and went to the pantry to grab a cup of coffee. I had a sip and went near the window to see the rain pouring down heavily outside the glass structure. I was inside our huge office building, unruffled by even the fierceness of the nature. Through the heavy transparent glass, I could see a small girl trying to hold on to her umbrella which the wind was snatching away from her. I felt sorry for the girl, and was happy that I was not in a similar pathetic situation. Yes. I take pride for the fact that I am a software engineer. . I have everything which a common man would envy; money, status, respect, you name it I have it. I always wanted to be software professional and here I am, working for one of the best firms in the world. But then, am I really happy? Now, I could see an imprint of my palm on the other glass window, through which I reminisced my past, basked in the warmth of the sun shine.

    My childhood was so much of fun. I vividly remember those rainy days, when I hugged my mother tightly during sleeping listening to all the stories told by her. Now, I have a big house here, but then it is just a house, not a home. My parents are pretty far away from me now. I have a cell phone to talk to them everyday, but then I really miss those dinners which I had with my family everyday. I could easily afford to taste all the different cuisines these days, but the best of food there, lack the love and affection which is present in the food prepared by my mother.

    I threw a la vish party for my colleagues for my birthday, but then they would never replace the birthdays when my friends secretly brought a cake and at the end, half of the cake would have ended up on my face. The couple of hundred bucks that u save for a long period just to give a treat to your friends in the road side chat shop can never give the pleasure even after spending a few thousand bucks these days.

    The scene of me crying and refusing to have dinner on the day when I fought with my best friend came to my mind. Today, she has gone far away from me, taking away my love and with it my life, but I am sitting and coding here with a false smile on my face. Everyday I meet new people, but then I long ceased to make a new friend.

    It's true that I have a lot of things now. I have a nice bed, but no time to sleep. Lots of money, but no friends to spend it with. The latest designer clothes, but a worn out body. Quite a few to flirt, but no one to love. Awards for technical excellence, but no reward for the crave for peaceful ambience. A confident demeanor, but a reluctant and apathetic mind. Full of rain, but no sunshine even in the farthest distance.

    Now, I could see the small girl on the road enjoying in the rain with her umbrella firmly in her grip. She might not have all the comforts which I have, but then she has the innocence and fun which I lost a long time back. I have decided to come out of this false fantasy, even if it is at the expense of losing the tap of the software engineer. I am going to again enjoy my life. I am going to go out in the rain and play with the small kid now. I removed my tie, and went near my computer to shut it down. Just then, I saw a new mail alert in my mail box. I slowly opened outlook and I found a message from my manager with an attachment saying that there was a critical defect in the code and I have to fix it soon. I convinced myself that I am not going to get bogged down again by these pressures and stick to my decision. I ignored the mail and went to the rest room. After a couple of minutes, the software engineer in me came out, his shirt tucked in with the perfect tie knot, sat before the computer, and started typing ……
    Thursday, March 8th, 2007
    11:02 am
    dozzing
    donno Iam feeling tooo sleepy today . got up late in the morning - also slept early yesterday. Yesterday I attended my frnd -devaki's wedding. I traveled a lot tat too in this traffic -so slept at 11. came to office at 10.35.Now its 11.05 -still not feeling like working - it like i just wanna laze on bed and sleeeeep .some weired thing happening in my head - my eyes are closing expressing urge to sleeep.

    And iam not able to control my laziness and sleep .

    so here I go and sleeeeeeeeeep

    Current Mood: sleepy
    Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
    1:40 pm
    Pehli Bar....
    today after lunch we went to terrace for "SUTTA BREAK". I had this urge to try cigarrate once . Today I tried smoking for the 1st time.sandy n anuj tought me how to inhale n smoke.I coughed a bit after 1st smoke. Air went till the end of throat - i didnt allow it go till lungs but released the air outside....

    It tasted lill wired and "KATTA". still that taste is thr in my mouth,throat and nose... feeling too good with lill "KATTA" taste or irritation in lungs....


    UPDATE -

    I tried only one sip thats it. I have not tried full cigeratte or did smoke after that - n dont want to do it tooo. It was only to know how it tasts i did it for fun :p

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Tuesday, February 20th, 2007
    4:29 pm
    Sleeeping story
    I remember those college days when my mother used force me to wake up for 30 min to 1hr - me on bed had tough time in getting up .college used to start at 8.15AM. I used to leave home at around 7.50 to 8 and reach college late daily. even my best freind Ranjani had same habit of coming late to college(If I didnt eat at home then have breakfast during 1st period at last bench along with her.....). I think teachers were fed up of us.

    During 1st yr of work I enjoyed getting lately and some how became tooo irregular at sleep .

    Those were the days when I used to be very irregular wrt sleep. sleep at 2 or 3 get up at 10 or 11 even 12 afternoon.
    All my freinds know abt this -n they have been giving me gyan abt sleeping early n getting up early including my mom.
    after 1yr of work life i realised tat regularity in sleep is imp n has advatages.Tried hard to bring some stablity in sleeping.

    now i get up at 8.30 to 9. sleep at 1. but weekend i get up at 10 to 11 and sleep at 2 to3...

    Since long time (yr or so ) iam planning to go to gym but lazzzy to get up early. evening after coming home I dont feel like going to gym but relax at home n spend time with family members. So Iam planning to buy a cycle n cycle to office daily -bcz my tummy is growing nicely day by day and i dont want to put on wt.

    now I have raised the bar - trying to get up at 7.30 to 8.(problem is even if i get up i wil not have tat mind to work or do anythink as iam not used to wake up at this time.) If I cant get up early n go to gym will get cycle

    lemme see if i succed in it or not...
    Tuesday, January 30th, 2007
    2:14 pm
    Last Day At NI - SAD to leave :(
    Time to Leave .....

    Today is my last day here at NI. Many feelings mixed togather.Butterflies in my stomach.Iam totally restless -donno something is bothering me in mind at background.Not able to figure out the reason.But feeling sad to leave all nice people out here.It was like college (another RV college :D) - never felt like i was in company most of the time.Its difficult to get this kind of env and ppl to be with and it was tough dicision to leave.I miss all those lunch sessions,anand's jokes,KPK,praveen , my team,karthik,Basappa,vrishti n ekta's chatting. Iam thankfull to my team for all support they lend me -it was nice with them both work and non-work wise.I know that I have to move on in life-but there are few moments in life when you cant stop but think and feel.

    I was never able to express all these feelingsto them( that i like them,they r close to my heart, i respect them ....).This was bcz of bad expriences in previous company I tried to be too strict, professional and was scared to be fully friendly and talk to them.Also Iam pretty pissed of with my INTROVERTEDness. Iam trying hard to over come this -bcz ppl do tend to misunderstand or get frustrated till they know me.Even i get frustrated by these misunderstandings.Hope I succeed in this effort and able to express clearly.


    I will be joining startup called - Four Interactive (fourint.com).Excited about work there deffly

    Current Mood: sad
    Thursday, November 9th, 2006
    5:56 pm
    Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking

    You are:

    Objective, honest, and credible
    Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests
    More inclined toward ideas than people
    Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventional
    5:47 pm
    You Belong in Fall

    Intelligent, introspective, and quite expressive at times...
    You appreciate the changes in color, climate, and mood that fall brings
    Whether you're carving wacky pumpkins or taking long drives, autumn is a favorite time of year for you
    3:18 pm
    Your Rising Sign is Aries

    You're full of energy - and people look to you to get the party started.
    Confident and honest, you'll be the one to say what everyone is thinking.

    You are easily bored, and you always find unique ways to do things.
    You don't just dream it, you do it. And that's why you're so successful.

    Too intense for some, often times people are intimidated by you.
    But you're usually smart enough to charm them anyway!
    2:23 pm
    You are 73% Virgo
    Saturday, February 11th, 2006
    4:59 pm
    Your Birthdate: July 16

    You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head.
    You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking.
    People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right.
    You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself.

    Your strength: Your original approach to thinking

    Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others

    Your power color: Pale blue

    Your power symbol: Wavy line

    Your power month: July




    This is almost true abt me :) ....

    Because Iam an introvert & have difficulty in showing feelings .... most of the time misunderstood -specially during intial stage of freindship or work....

    Dammn !!!cant express feeling but Iam like that . I am one of those kind - who think feeling like caring etc is there inside& want others to understand my feeling by themselves - I dont see any point in expressing ...
    I just can't do it

    NOt only feelings even with work. I cant just talk or present about my work... People think that Iam dumb(most of the time) or too good (rarely) at the first shot -...
    Even my classmates - few think I only work or study dont enjoy ...

    But Iam glad that those few friends who r really close to me understand me properly that I work,enjoy ,play fun loving etc :)

    Basically misunderstood by almost all during intial stage- only those who know me really well & take time to understand me will be knowing me properly.

    Enough is enough Iam fedup of these craps... I just neglect if others think wrong abt me.. it's up to them to understand thier mistakes -again I cant go & tell them...
    Sunday, December 25th, 2005
    9:58 pm
    Your Personality Profile

    You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth.
    While you may not be a total hippie...
    You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around.

    You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure.
    However, you do put some thought behind all your actions.
    Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!
    9:40 pm
    Again
    I took this again ...I was bored,feeling lazy so just wanted to do something kool took this test again

    The Keys to Your Heart

    You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

    In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

    You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

    You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

    Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.

    Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

    You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

    In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


    Current Mood: calm
    Monday, December 5th, 2005
    1:58 pm
    The Keys to Your Heart

    You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

    In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

    You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

    You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

    Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

    Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

    You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

    In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


    Current Mood: cheerful
    Monday, November 28th, 2005
    3:23 pm
    Yahoo!!!
    Yahoo !!!

    It was 26th Nov which made my DAY!!! . Yes I went to IBM fusion funda-Cul fest with my MOM. Guess what
    I got to attend concert of ......

    .......






    .......

    None other than KAY KAY !!! Iam die-heart fan of Kay kay .Man he has such sexy voice and sexy himself . He is just tooo good,extraordinary,sexy :D.
    As expected by my mother - I was there from begining till the end of his concert Standing at FRONTMOST (near stage)and dancing and singing.

    He just Rocked all of us. I got shake his hand many times and he gave me mike to sing( though I shouted ;) ). I was singing all of his songs along with him.

    Its already 28th -Nov 4.PM 2days over ,still Iam in that josh ....

    Man Kay Kay just ROX ROX and ROX that's it . after all he is there to ROCK for coming yrs .

    Really I fell for him completely after this ...


    Lol ..Iam sooo Happy and thrillied to meet my idol

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Saturday, October 29th, 2005
    12:36 pm
    :( ................. :((
    Was chatting with my friend cum senior at PESIT, yesterday ...

    Well came to know some sad news. Was feeling sad yesterday night . didn't talk to my MOM or brother too
    much at home . Usally i will be happy, talking ,teasing etc -they feel my presence.But yesterday was sad & didnt want to show it up so was quite .Today morning -got up late ,did all my morning stuff quitely with one or two interaction. They did notice that something was wrong with me.Well thank god they didnt force me to tell it out ..but just asked me that did something went wrong me ??

    I think nothing can go right with me :((.I have stopped excpectations. Well Life goes on , have to bare sadness , have to concentrate on Mugging or learning english words .. but i know i cannot do it effectively for other 2 days ...Dont know when will I come out of this dissapointment , but I have to.

    well I read my this journal entry -

    http://www.livejournal.com/users/1pari/15115.html

    so that i can come out of sad mood but still iam not able to.. :(

    Current Mood: depressed
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